Michael Whitehead: In…Not Of Personal journal of life in my 40s and beyond

October 25, 2017

Week 5 – Inner Battles

Filed under: Uncategorized — Michael @ 5:54 pm

This has been a course like no other. And this week has culminated today in some real struggle. I like optimism, but I must keep it real. I like my Master mind group. It’s a bit like going to Sunday School at Church. Everyone’s smiling and showing their best side. After a while, that causes a little gastro-intestinal unsettling so I’m just not going to tune into the Marco Polos for few days until I can stomach it again.

The fact is, this stuff is hard! I’m battling the negative voice and it wins a lot! I don’t like cynicism, envy, pity, victimization and such. But something in me sure wants to dwell in it when I’m struggling and suddenly take a blow. Then the the fear sets in… fear of not making enough money… and it’s almost paralyzing.

I’m stuck on a DMP that I can’t seem to improve. Time is precious. I spent an hour on my task to advance towards my SMART goals, only to discover an hour later that all the work had been undone by some internet watch dog. To be specific, I was posting Craigs List ads to generate leads and someone flagged every one of them! And they are completely legitimate ads that comply with the CL terms and conditions!

OATS is great, but in practice so many of my daily tasks that I’ve scheduled simply slip. They take much longer than I’ve scheduled, I get distracted to some other tasks that require immediate attention. I find myself looking at 2-3 days worth of scheduled tasks on Thursday and Friday, in addition to the tasks I scheduled for those two days.

This is the first week in the MMMKE course that I’ve started to let some tasks for the course slip. An incomplete DMP helps me justify not reading it 3x/day, until I can finally get it right. Since I don’t have a final DMP, what’s the point in a trailer card, and how can I write a press release? It’s a snowball effect.

I feel like I’m getting nowhere but buried deeper and very frazzled and confused by the inner battle. It’s temporary. It will turn around. But how do I deal with this in a better way? Am I the only only one who ever feels like this?

October 19, 2017

Week 4 – Relaxed and Progressing

Filed under: Uncategorized — Michael @ 3:04 pm

After Sunday’s webinar, I realized I could relax a bit. I had my week already scheduled and had a sense I could continue this course. There was a lot of stress before the webinar in anticipation of how much it was going to cost to continue to keep MMMKE a Pay It Forward program for next year’s members. Additionally I was a bit stressed and frustrated at the amount of time spent revising my DMP. But the Pay It Forward prices we voted on were reasonable in my opinion. And I used a little Conscious Mind gatekeeping to simply not get spun up about the DMP.

I am awed that my guide is taking my DMP so seriously. It’s a lot of work with some frustration, but it’s humbling that someone who’s just begun to know me is serious about the effectiveness of MY DMP on my subconscious. I want to care that much for others!

This week has brought more balance as my intentional scheduling out this week last Friday ensured. I’ve found time to comment on other people’s blogs and get caught up on the digital solutions webinars. It’s Thursday and I still need to do my “service” card task. I need to get more cognizant of shapes, as I realize I’m not really making those links/associations yet.

I’ve learned that I like the Sit in the middle of the days. Early morning is a 2nd choice. But I find little value for myself in doing the Sit at the end of the day. I usually like a short nap in the middle of the day, but I’ve found with the Sit, I don’t need the nap. You’d think I’m falling asleep during the Sit, but I’m not! I’m just relaxing and following Haanel’s instructions. It’s rejuvenating, but I need to focus more on how I’m connected with the Infinite.

Finally, my thoughts turn to what I need to do to finish the week strong. I’ll continue my new habits of reading The Greatest Salesman scroll 3x/day, reading the BluePrint Builder, DMP and Giving card out loud each day, reading the Master Key and sitting. But today and tomorrow, I revise my DMP according to my guide’s suggestions, and need to jump in on Marco Polo with my group as I’ve been a bit remiss there. Looking forward to the video and webinar this weekend!!!

October 12, 2017

Week 3 – Seeking Balance. Understanding Sacrifice.

Filed under: Uncategorized — Michael @ 7:38 pm

The challenge and the change continue.  Balance is my next objective, because this week has been unbalanced.  I scheduled everything out last Saturday and on Monday started letting non-Master Key tasks slide to later days in the week.  The networking and phone calls that were already built into the schedule caused me and the entire family to feel we’d bitten off more that we could chew!

I’ll try a different approach next week, thanks to a recommendation from my guide.  I will schedule in the family time and fitness time first, then put in the other money making tasks.

My Definite Major Purpose (DMP), or Dharma, was returned with an emphasis to include what I intend to SACRIFICE in order to achieve the goals I stated.  So the DMP is on my plate to re-write tomorrow.  It is difficult to write anything about sacrifice without coming across as negative.  And I want to avoid negative thought.

It’s overwhelming and I’ve found myself very tired for some reason this week.  But I’ll get it done.  My guide has been very helpful and I’m impressed at the time she puts in to getting to know everyone and help with honing their DMPs.

October 5, 2017

Week 2 – Discovery & Challenges

Filed under: Uncategorized — Michael @ 11:07 pm

Definitely some challenges this week.  The biggest one is TIME.  Just balancing the 3 x per day activities with entrepreneurial work and a big family is doable but difficult.  Scheduling is the key.  As Mark J said, “If it isn’t written, it isn’t true.”  And I did prepare a schedule for the week, I just find that sticking to it is a challenge. Challenge is good.  I’m up for it, and can master this one.

The exciting part is the discovery!  I am absolutely convinced of the principles I am learning.  So far, my faith has not been challenged in the way that I feared it might.  I’ve read no mystical, new age arguments against the faith that is already firm within me.  In fact, what is exciting are the parallels and supporting arguments I’m reading in Haanel’s book, “The Master Key System”.

“This is the power which is being used by those who do not believe in the virtue of poverty, or the beauty of self-denial.”  This may seem controversial at first, because we know Christ had no place to lay his head, and it warrants further exploration.  But, I’m reminded of the parable of the the talents from the Gospels, knowing that if we fail to bring value the lives of others, we fail indeed, certainly disappointing our Creator.

Point 20 in chapter 2 stood out to me especially; “It has been found that by plainly stating to the subconscious mind certain specific things to be accomplished, forces are set in operation that lead to the result desired.”  Now I realize how powerful this experience with the Master Mind course may become.

September 27, 2017

Week 1 – Beginning a MasterMind Experience

  On Sunday this week I started something I’ve been looking forward to.  It is a guided course of self-discovery based on the writing of Charles Haanel, primarily his book titled “The Master Key System”.  Additionally, I’m required to read a book by Og Mandino, “The Greatest Salesman in the World”.  Having read Og Mandino’s, “The Greatest Miracle in the World”, I know this book will be well worth reading.

  But there is more to this course than merely reading books.  The assignments require repeated reading of specific sections, three times per day and some of the readings are out loud.  Specifically, Scroll 1 of “The Greatest Salesman in the World” is read upon waking up, after the midday meal, and then at night before going to sleep, but at this reading it is read aloud.

Having great care for my Christian faith and the things I read, I’ve been a little apprehensive about the spiritual aspect of this course.  I’m somewhat reassured by the knowledge that Og Mandino and I share the same faith.  I’ve also come to think that it must be OK to ask sincere questions of our creator, and my growth through this course may prompt such.

I’m learning this week to establish daily habits of filling my mind with words of capability.  I understand that I’m created in the image of God, and therefore have creation powers within.  We all do.  And by that, I mean that what my mind dwells on tends to come to fruition.  I’ve seen this with previous accomplishments and previous failures in my life.  For this reason, I must be careful to guard against negative thoughts, and should benefit immensely from dwelling on positive thoughts and visualizations.  I’ve begun this week, to make these periods of dwelling on positive thoughts and visualizations a regular habit.

It’s been a challenging week, inside my head that is.  Feelings of inadequacy and falling short are always ready to enter and send me sulking in self-pity, complaining out loud, but I fight.  They will not prevail.  I wrote a “Definite Major Purpose” to describe how I see the successful version of me.  I read it aloud three times a day.

I’m not yet sure how my work in this Master Mind course will lead to greater fulfillment, or help me to accomplish what is left before me, but I’m excited about it, ready for it, and hoping it is an epiphany on a level that helps me to enrich not only my own life, but especially the lives of others.

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